Bloody Tonsils

When I tell my background to others, they always thought that the more they find out about me, the more they think life's been unfair to me, and that it's hard for me. I wouldn't want to think that life's been hard on me, I guess I'm lucky enough to have a family and close friends anyways. Even though I feel detached from 'em sometimes, but it's just another passing feeling, since I prefer to be alone most of the times.

And I don't like it when people pity me. I tell you not to get pity from you, it just shows how I trust you as a friend (but most of the times, I tell stories only 'cause I'm intoxicated -.- lucky bitches). So don't do that, 'cause I think it's condescending.

Anyway, I was brushing my tonsils and I scraped out a piece of the "stones" there on the walls. Looks fucking gross and smells really bad. But I have bleeding tonsils now 'cause of it. Ergh. Feels so much better though.

I just want to see you.

If you wouldn't mind me,

NEW SKETCHBOOK FUCK YEA! :D

The bottom of Pandora's box.

As I walked through Brighton Crescent's area tonight with Baby Rae, I wondered if I would ever live in a private estate in my "dream house". After all, as middle-income earners, we'll always be earning only enough to make ends meet, and our savings will be minimal. Climbing the corporate ladder will take years of effort. We'll always be so far away from the so called "financial freedom". It's not that a luxurious and glamorous lifestyle is the way to go, but I always believe that people work towards "financial freedom" so that they're able to invest more time into their own passion, family and friends.

Many people say that entrepreneurship and business rolls in big money, which is one of the pathway towards financial freedom. But even so, you need to have a monetary capital, no matter the size of the business. It'll be hard to start a business, even if it is in the simplest form. Time and monetary investments requires alot of consideration and weighing of the pros and cons before they could actually start it. If the business fail, then it's just a big loss and they're back to square one. And this is for just the middle-income family. Needless to say, it's unimaginable what tough lives people from the low-income family goes through every single day. Without luck, what the low-income family go through will be but a vicious cycle of society's cruelty.

Having said that, I know there is hope. I know of a lot of angels out there helping people, and these angels are gonna start a new generation of heroes, no matter how small their contribution may be.

I was working this other day, and I saw this elderly man struggling to hang the Singapore flag at midnight, and I was thinking to myself why he'd push himself so much to finish a job when he could do it the next day. He had a bandage over an injury over his knee, and had difficulty carrying his tools while climbing up the ladder. Of course, I offered to help with Dave, but it just makes me feel sad that he has to work despite his age and the late hours.

Can I just say, and I'm just being honest

that I feel so old, because I can never withstand long days active for more than 16hours a day.

Let's just pray

I'm gonna stick to this momentum to just keep going. And honestly, NS may make a boy a man, or prepare you for the working society, or lets you understand how the outside world is like, or understand discipline, or make one feel more attached to Singapore, or to prepare us (boys & men) to defend Singapore,

I don't see a fucking point when all of the above statement doesn't even work out to half the people who went NS. Singapore has no need to be defended, because after all, there's a dwindling local population with a diabolic infestation of foreigners, it's probably less than 50% of the whole population is defending Singapore when that happens. Afterall, there are 974 males per 1000 females in Singapore population in 2010. Maybe about 10% are foreigners coming from all over the place. So that leaves with less than 50% of the population defending Singapore. And I haven't counted in those who're not-fit-to-serve-the-country (which includes the elderly, so,

WE'RE FUCKED ANYWAYS WHY BOTHER D:

Even foreigners are overrunning our parameters... What amazing spies they are. Told'ya we're doomed.