Cigs and Booze are poison.

I've come to realize the effects of growing up, how it affects your mind and body. I never really gave much thought about it until recently. But meh.

Really am enjoying work but the only annoying thing is the shift work plan, so my weekends are sometimes not spared from work. It's funny sometimes though, not killing my lungs with cigarettes nor my liver with alcohol on some weekends. It feels healthy though. Sometimes I even have the urge to feel like I should stop smoking and drinking altogether. They are poison to my body and yes, I can feel it. Well, let's just see how, maybe I'll start from quitting smoking.

Will you miss me when I am gone?

I can't wait for enlistment. At least I am going somewhere. And I can get busy and take my mind off some issues that just doesn't make me feel good right now.

dead people are boring

There are many things I don't find a need to say, nor redundant to ask unless of course I am interest in the subject or the subject talking about the subject. Which probably makes me a boring person because contrary to beliefs, I don't think I am that vocal as far as my thoughts are concerned.

17 days left.

Funny how things doesn't go the way I want when I drink or smoke, but when I start going on an extreme and opposite lifestyle, things seem to run smoothly. Perhaps life is trying to show me the right way and path in life, no matter how small and insignificant things maybe.


I'm starting to feel better about the loss of my phone already. I could be better off without the little distractions like fiddling with my phone wherever I am. Reading a book is perhaps much better than reading senseless articles on the internet. Staying away from Facebook doesn't mean I'll be less connected to the world. I might even be more engaged to the real world in many other ways.

Lotsa random thoughts today. And also, planning a fixed schedule to stick to for this two weeks. Sweet.

You still haunt me

If only I was there for you then, you might not have jumped.

i would sigh a lot but that will just make me sound old and annoying

I think I screwed up. But I want to start doing things right now.

The past is a grotesque animal and you see in its eyes how completely wrong you can be.

I felt so disoriented today despite being out with a good friend. Just so many things running in my head and I couldn't snap out of it. I wonder if I could get my thoughts out of my head before dinner time.