Words aren't enough to

Dy and I were talking about how people take promises so lightly and believe that by just mere words, it is enough an insurance for others. We agreed on the part about actions needing to follow through words. Just as how we say "seeing is believing", not "hearing is believing".

Anyway, I whipped up a cheesy mushroom soup and linguine bolognese for cousin's birthday. It was good. I should start cooking.

Anyway, I hope you had a good fuck.

I heard stories, and I believed them because he is a law student and I am just a nobody. The "class status" (which is non-existent in my eyes) is too much a disparity. It's not like I'm bitter about seeing you with him, I just felt disappointed because you promised you'd make it up to me a month or two back, but you never did. And that was a second time you promised but never did. And now you're with someone new, or so the stories went.

I hope you understood why I told you "It's up to you if you want to make it up for me, you don't have to promise me because you should know by now that I take promises very seriously. If I promised, I would definitely do it, and this is the only expectation I have for you. Even if you promised now, I'd not put too much seriousness in what you said unless you really keep your promise. I'm tired of disappointment from all the promises people around me give."

Because you never did keep your promises to me.

I had the weirdest dream ever.

Conspiracy theory. Saved mother while crying in tears. The end.

what's in your head, zombie?

I just hope friends are doing well, even though they're not...? Everyone seems to be feeling shitty as much as I am. I'm becoming more selfish, because I simply can't deal with other's shit anymore. I feel so tired and so drained every single day and I've been asked for the umpteenth time by my course in-charge whether or not I need a long break from school because every single day I appear as though I'm occupied in my thoughts with other things.

I feel so fucked just so you know. Meh but I'm surviving.

Can he do all these things?

Like we used to.

i hate it when

Jealousy pops out from no where, really ._.

Anyway, we were talking about first impression and shit, and I think I've always left a very bad impression. Oh well.