May 31, 2012

Mmm delicious.

I have an honest love for jockeys (boxer-briefs). I think it's so mildly seductive that it's so spicily sexy. I'm not making sense here but I think I should buy ah boy a few pair of jockeys. And I have a great feeling that there'll be a "surprise" tonight. We'll see about that.

Can't wait for my birthday this year. I want a hot ASIAN stripper. Not too ripped, not too flabby, I'd say Hwanhee will be good.


Like I've said, jockeys are the best.
Also, a body not too ripped and not
too flabby like his is the best.

May 30, 2012

"Let the heart rest. Let the music come from around you and let it fill the ears."


I never noticed when it began that your laughter fill my heart with so many colours I never knew existed. You told me that if only things were simpler than they were, that we would've lived on an entirely different and happier life than we are right now, and it could be just you and me; two people sharing different ideals, bodies and minds that weaved almost perfectly into each others' lives.

I never knew I could still continue to give in and go the extra mile in for love's sake, that I would do so much just to see a person smile again. I thought I wouldn't be able to deal with myself. After all, it's been 3 attempts to try to be the one for others: an ex-boyfriend, and 2 others that probably didn't even want to consider accepting my emotions for them.

Maybe I had just packed myself with work and that helped me moved on. Maybe I am just being very silly because like you've said, "You deserves someone better". Maybe I just really miss you too much my heart decided to help me get through my agony.

Or maybe I still do miss you so much my heart is just as confused as my mind.
Or maybe, I just think too much.

May 7, 2012

Is being in love a natural emotion, or something that we were taught by the society while growing up in it?

He realized only after a long search that no one can stop suffering; one has to go beyond it.

How do you go beyond suffering? You have to learn to stop wanting things. First, you realize that nothing we touch, or see, or hear, or smell, or taste, will last forever. Things we perceive will only pass away after awhile. Flowers fade, parents die, the sun sets. Next, you know that the things you want will only satisfy your desire just for a period of time. As you fulfilled your wishes, you begin to want more, just to give yourself that temporal fabricated reality of happiness and the cycle continues.

In this never ending pursuit of happiness, what one goes through isn't towards happiness. Instead, it is a cruel path of suffering.