Skylight

I haven't been in theatrical productions for quite sometime. I'm still quite surprised as to why V would ask me to direct the drama for her because I, obviously, has never been familiar with stage directing and dramatic acting. Nevertheless, I've decided to give extra focus on this stage play because I see potential in some of the kids. Might be yelling at them soon if I don't see improvement, and I hope I'm not going to portray myself as "that asshole, Mr Ryuu (or Guo Wei, however they want to call me)".

There is this one kid who surprised me with her level of maturity and ideas in her mind that sets her apart from the other 16-year-old. Kind of like a 16 year old me, she reminded me of myself when I was her age. This kid has the blueprints for dreaming the impossible, and the courage to be alone in her thoughts. Being ostracized in school, yet believing in herself that she is stronger and better. I'm starting to take a liking into this kid.

I've laid out a somewhat general plan of the marinating the kids I'm working with before I start grilling them. I hope they can take it, cause if they can't, there's no hope.

You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel.

You didn't actually cared right from the beginning, did you?

Perhaps. Maybe.

I've always been so self-righteous, but I might be just a terrible person after all. Which probably explains why I am single, and why my ex and I are not close at all.

Resolutions for the year.

1) Treat those who're close to me the way they deserves to be treated.
2) Help all the people who needs my help when it's within my capabilities.
3) Get the right mindset whatever I'm dealing for the day.
4) Prioritize and manage money well.

This post is dedicated to the annoying little fucks.

It's damn pretty frustrating to see lotsa people posting "This post is dedicated to my bestiebestbestbesties for being there when I needed you/all of you", "This is dedicated to my honeybunsugartitsjigglypuff for loving me happy 3rd day anniversary", "Valentine's day is near, I just want to let ALL my friends on my Facebook, and all my followers, and every single person I actually don't care about, that I love you guys!". No really, it fucking pisses me off. Not that it's a bad thing to spread the love but first of all you lack that sincerity. Also, why dedicate to all your followers on twitter or some of your "friends" on Facebook when you don't even actually fucking bother to communicate with them on a deeper level on normal occasions? And while regarding your own friends, I don't think you have to "dedicate" any posts because they don't mean no shit. We are all human beings, your friends will know whether or not they've been treated just the way friends are supposed to be treated that way. There's no fucking need to tell the whole world if you've done it right.

Oh and also, while celebrating happily Saint Valentine death's, also think about those people who had been suffering from the wounds you inflicted. Because of your ignorance, irresponsibility and immaturity, these people have the bear the burden of an anguished heart and a tormented soul.

Reflect on what you've done that made people dislike you, though you probably would've known because there are certain people who cares about you, who would tell you what you've done wrong. True friends never tell you that "There's nothing wrong with you" because they know that no one is perfect. It is because of such imperfections that we have that our friends understand why people dislike us; it is because these people aren't able to see beyond the imperfections.

Change yourself for the better. And don't go crazy over the "people should love me for who I am". Yes, you may not please everybody, but that doesn't remain a reason for you to continue being ignorant and irresponsible.

Be true to yourself. Only you control what truth and lies coming out from your mouth. Stop lying to people that loves you. Stop hurting them. Stop pushing them away. Apologies will not work on broken hearts unless the actions you do reflects your words. Stop apologising, start working on your apologies through actions.

Love your friends and start treating them the way they deserves.