"God made Adam and Eve, not Adam and Steve."

You know, the thing I really hate about shity situations while clubbing is that they strike anytime. I'm still quite amazed that I could feel the attack coming and building up before it actually happened, then again, there's no stopping to it. Last night was probably one of the shittiest nights, but it was still fun prior to whatever that happened.

And oh, my phone is stolen, again. God, how much I hate this.

9 Monsters.

It's been awhile since I partied, and last night was particularly, well, insightful? It opens my eyes up to a lot of things.



As usual, feeling down and shit, I've been asking around "Hey just a question, would you date me?" to friends around. Quite an even mix of Yes' and No's, and one of the more common reason for the No's is the fact that they feel there's nothing common to talk about, or about them barely knowing much about me to know if I'm their type. One of my friend pointed out to me that I did too much of knowing others, but I barely let anyone know about myself.

Anyway, so many shit to deal with and I'm feeling so blargh. Imma play Pokemon games to kill the shitty feeling, meh.

It's been forty-two months since may but it still feels like yesterday.

I always feel that things are turning to shit and the world is against is but, fuck, I know I've been making a lot of bad decisions lately and procrastination is another thing I'm very capable of. I know at least most of the shit going on is caused by my own misjudgment of my own abilities.

*inserts cliche caption for above photo*

Oh my aunt-in-law and uncle's wedding photo btw =]

Anyway, uncle's wedding (might not be fantastic), but it was really sweet and quite fun actually, with quite a lot of shit going on. I was helping to snap the shots for their traditional Chinese wedding ceremony, or whatever you call that, and I couldn't help realise how insensitive my aunt-in-law's family members are. Or at least I suppose they are the extended family members of hers. During the entire ceremony, there wasn't attention paid to them, everybody else was just minding their own business and only the bridesmaids was engaging the groom and buddies to play the games. Also, the groom's buddies are NOT very participating at all, maybe it's just their age (oops).

Wedding dinner was almost perfect, if not for the drunk fucks. I was supposed to help serve some hard liquor for my uncle's friends and I got barraged by insults for not pouring more into the already full glasses. It wasn't even 2 dishes past into the 9 course meal and they're already drunk and causing a lot of disturbance. I decided to bite my tongue instead of theirs, and resist the urge to remind the other dinner guests that it's true what they say about feisty-drunkards.

Sang a song with my sister on the stage during the wedding dinner, and I think that cheered me up a lot more. Didn't think I sounded great, but there wasn't any cutie to impress anyway, so I didn't really give a shit. Oh and did I mention how terribly delicious the food is? God, that's the reason why I go to wedding dinner. And the wedding photos are so cute!

Someday, I wanna do that too. But for now, fucking tests and exams and shit. Then NS. Then work. Then find boyfriend. Then see how things go.

Can't believe time flies and I'm turning 20 in seven months' time. Fuck.

FAG FAG FAGGGGGGGS

I fucking hate it when people use your laptop, and then they fucking close the entire opened tabs of internet browsers you left open for revisiting later. OR when they start exploring the contents of your laptop without your consent. Seek help for it bitches _|_

On the side note, I hate this NO WIFI HOTSPOTS AVAILABLE moments. Fucking wish there's a Starbucks (with WiFi) or Old Town White Coffee (with fucking WiFi).


So much in my mind I don't know what to start with, but I'll leave it for another day. I need a fag now badly, and you too.

"The world goes on with or without me"

I can't wait, actually, butterflies in my stomach and shit (also, prolly some more partly-digested food that needs to be thrown up soon). For now, I should just rest and wait, 'cause I just ingested some sleep-inducing pills. And yea, I'm sleeping early, that's something new.

Arts, Design and Make-out.

First party experience with baby love Rae and it was more than fun, and indefinitely enjoyable (except the kissing thing). I felt slightly awkward there though haha, cause I'm not from ADM and shit, but twas good to make new friends and shit. There was this perturbingly faggot who pulled me to him and kissed me, with the tongue and all, I was surprised at first but I wanna just let it pass like that cause you know people get drunk and shit. I only kiss girls when I'm drunk, not guys, even if they are gay. Anyway, the people I've kissed last night were really bad aggressive kissers they bit my lips lotsa times -.- Fuck anyway, back to the douchebag, I heard that he was attached to this other guy and shit and I began to feel fucked up. It's crazy when you think about what really governs these people. Definitely not order and discipline, more like wild trashy fun (in a sexual way, too). And I wonder why people are like this.

Anyway, fuck that shit. Lotsa cute boys last night, shan't complain. Woo. I loooove ADM.

blargh.

It's a wonder how looking at your photos still makes me smile and making me feel all funny inside and I'm missing you. Yes as much as I say I can't bring myself to trust you, but that doesn't mean I've stopped loving you.

Nyan nyan nyan.