"The world goes on with or without me"

I can't wait, actually, butterflies in my stomach and shit (also, prolly some more partly-digested food that needs to be thrown up soon). For now, I should just rest and wait, 'cause I just ingested some sleep-inducing pills. And yea, I'm sleeping early, that's something new.

Arts, Design and Make-out.

First party experience with baby love Rae and it was more than fun, and indefinitely enjoyable (except the kissing thing). I felt slightly awkward there though haha, cause I'm not from ADM and shit, but twas good to make new friends and shit. There was this perturbingly faggot who pulled me to him and kissed me, with the tongue and all, I was surprised at first but I wanna just let it pass like that cause you know people get drunk and shit. I only kiss girls when I'm drunk, not guys, even if they are gay. Anyway, the people I've kissed last night were really bad aggressive kissers they bit my lips lotsa times -.- Fuck anyway, back to the douchebag, I heard that he was attached to this other guy and shit and I began to feel fucked up. It's crazy when you think about what really governs these people. Definitely not order and discipline, more like wild trashy fun (in a sexual way, too). And I wonder why people are like this.

Anyway, fuck that shit. Lotsa cute boys last night, shan't complain. Woo. I loooove ADM.

blargh.

It's a wonder how looking at your photos still makes me smile and making me feel all funny inside and I'm missing you. Yes as much as I say I can't bring myself to trust you, but that doesn't mean I've stopped loving you.

Nyan nyan nyan.

iPhonez

SURPRISE! Daddy sent my phone for repair even though I said I didn't want it anymore. I appreciate these little things daddy do for me as much as I dislike him nagging at me all the time. I'm lost for words, woofoo iPhone! =]

Shit just got real.

SCREW THE WANDS, GUNS FTW.

I'd watched the full harry potter film series (only until now), and I thought it was extremely dull. I want to see action packed fighting, not wands waving and short duels. Anyway, I realised that I have this new-found obsession with games. I'm beginning to see the entertainment value in gaming. Not that I haven't seen it before but, it only applies to Heroes of Might and Magic series, The Elder Scrolls series, Pokemon series, Monster Hunter series, Assassins Creed series and just some other random RPG/Action/Adventure games.

I've also been trying to find Runaway: A Road Adventure and it's sequel (can't remember the name) but it was released way long ago. 2D graphics with a minimal 3d environment. Detective game thing. If anyone can find where to purchase it, do tell me! :D

Also, I need to fucking play Dragon Age/Dragon Age 2, Prototype. I'm waiting for The Secret World and Skyrim to be releaseddddddd <3

Kiss the rain, just fucking kiss it.

Why can't you just stop thinking so much, stop feeling pathetic about yourself and learn to live life as it is? If you have the courage to take on the pills and hold that blade, why can't you channel those courage into accepting change and making your life better? There's Gotta Be More To Life, if you haven't heard that song yet.

If you can't take the pain of it anymore, then, share it with someone you trust alot. Don't go bearing the weight of the burden all by yourself. Cheesy as it sounds, that's what friends are for, right?

There'll be days like this, when rain seems to wash away everything, but there're some things that will be washed away only if you let it. There are some things that'll be gone before you could even reach and drag it back, but rain will never be able to wash away your heart and your soul. If there are days that make you feel that rain is washing away everything, look right back at you and you'll see that there are still things even more precious than those you've lost, and those are the days when you have all the more reason to say, "Thank you", because there is nothing more beautiful than the way oceans refuses to kiss the shoreline no matter how many times they've been sent away.

If there are days when you feel that the rain is nothing more but a mockery from heaven, beating down on you because of you losing things you deem as important, and you're up to your knees and disappointment, Thank the rain for coming down because, rain is just washing away your tears, and it is a good thing tears never show in the pouring rain. If the rain is mocking you, that's because you let it. The rain is nothing more but a gift of life from heaven, so don't think otherwise, because the rain is you.

Fragile Shit.

iPhone is so fragile, I swear on my life I'm not getting an iphone again, unless I have the moolah. It dropped. I don't mind a cracked screen, but a few tiny pieces of its innards fell out and bitch can't be switched on anymore. It dieddddddd R.I.H to my iphone. R.I.H means Rest in Hell actually.

Fuck Apple for coming up with these fragile shit. I remember my friend's Macbook AIR snapped into 2 parts. And it wasn't even equal parts. Oh yea, the money invested into that Macbook just vanished into thin air alright. Neat shit? Fuck you, Apple.

I want to change to black fucking berry.