It's just hard to tell someone you really like them a lot, but at the same time be gentlemen about it. I'm alright if they don't like me, it's just so hard for me to tell them, and seeing them makong out with someone like me hurts me, despite knowong we're not together and tgey're not obliged to behave like one that belongs to me alone. Yes i do get jealous but I am but human. I only blame myself for being unable to convey my feelings to the other party.

I hate myself for leaving him in the party and not sending him home, but I cannpt bring myself to see more of the kissing action. I am a coward, aint I?